almost vanished by the fiiiiire *doo bee doo bee doo bee doo bee doo*

Waaaks, hello bloggers. Long time no see :D

It happened approximately thirteen hours ago, rainy outside, totally blackout, hot air, panicked, nervous, lalala yeyeye. -_-

I only had candles in my room when the blackout occurred. Well, this is sooo yesterday but I have no choice. I don't really like being in a dark room, rainy, the temperature is raising, in this such situation. I. Really. Hate. This. Really.

So, I burned two candles and placed them in a plastic bowl and I filled a little water in it. One was succeed, but the other was failed. The bowl was wet and I couldn't dry it by any utensils around me. So, I just placed it on the top of a plastic candy jar. The one in the plastic bowl started to melt away and gone. The other one still was survive, but it was just about 5 cm long. 'Oh, it won't be long. I'll prepare another one and burn it,' my brain said.

And, fuck.

I fell asleep.

Feeling so exhausted, torridity, panicked, nervous, scared, etc etc. Previously, I put the candles on the table. The table is made from wood and I leave a 5-cm-long burning candle on it aaaaand I overslept. Guess what happened next? Yes, yes, the table is BUUUUURRRNNNEEEDDD!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh. God. Why?

It's relieved that it burned a little part of the table top, not the whole thing. This is so kampret and I could just put out the fire using anythings around my hands. I hit it with plastic fan, pour it with water from the plastic bowl. Yeah, the fire started to go out and I covered the burned area with sajadah. :|

I just reach everything near me and put on the fire. I'm totally panicked and nervous. If only you guys could hear my heartbeat. It was rushing. Good thing the fire is gone, although I have to let my sajadah go. Well, it's the saddest thing, though...

I only relied the light from my cellphone to clean things and cover it. The ashes, burned things (my bracelets, my two bottles of nail polish, everything I cherish more :'(), the newspaper, plastic things around the burned area, even my tosca purse were thrown away. Yes, I have to do this, because those things are burned. Thank God, the money is saved, so I can continue my life here. Poor thing, the motorcycle keys of Apin's and my boy's and the STNK of Apin's motorcycle are burned. Not the whole area, it just a little part of its corner. I must be so careless, sloppy, yeah whatever it is. Now, I have to find a good answer if Apin asks later why her things are burned. Help me! :'(

I won't use the little candle in a short time I guess. Ummm, may be a big one with a sturdy base and I place it on an anti-burned mat. I should buy one as soon as possible, considering I can't afford the emergency lamp which can be charged and used when the blackout is occurred. Rainy season is coming, blackout will come often. I should prepare one though. :)

Well, wish me luck. It does make me cautious. Be careful with burning things, fire, candles, whatever they are. Don't leave it alone and you must be 100000000% awake to make sure if the burning candle almost runs out. I've cleaned the mess last night, at that time. Mop the floor once the power is on. Ugh, my room was totally messy. Ashes everywhere, the ceiling is covered with spiderweb and ashes, burned smell everywhere, burned smoke, aaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhh totally fucked! :|

The post is untidy, swearing, ah I'm depressed, but I'm okay. Oh what I'm thinking about... Well, be good, Fellas. Always be alert and 100% awake for every situation.

See you around. :)